Jenneral HQ

Almost no one is evil, almost everything is broken.

Title creds go to Jaibot.

[epistemic status: mostly venting. Purposefully vague about some things for contractual reasons.]

So this is the end of my second week working at a job that, if I were slightly more naĂŻve, would be the dream job in terms of how fulfilling it would feel.

I’m a research assistant working in the federal public service. The portfolio my team has at any given time is impressive - indigenous rights, empowering vulnerable people to get their children to postsec/jobs training, easing applications to programs like our retirement funds and making sure that less people fall through the cracks when it comes to program applications.

But the pull of Moloch is strong and I can’t help but feel complicit in a system where -

Ok, you know that oft-repeated leftist truism, “all cops are corrupt”? Some people take it to mean that every worker in the police department is personally evil, corrupt, and “dirty”. Obviously, this is not true. But I think this is the true thing that that phrase actually means: it’s impossible to not be corrupt in a system that is intrinsically so. Here are some forms of evil that you can be in an evil system:

Me? I’m the “person who tries to modernize the system and inject compassion into it, enough that it sticks around for a longer time than it would have otherwise but not enough to make it not evil”. How evil is this?

A regular experience I have: A new project is proposed. My first reaction is “wow, holy mother of neoliberalism. This is an awful thing to promote.” My second reaction is “ok, but if we don’t do that we’ll be complicit in the suppression of upwards social mobility for poor people? Condemning them to a life in squalid conditions?”

Here’s an example. A group in the department is concerned that not enough retirees are returning to the workforce, and they’ve asked to collaborate with us. We’ve been tasked with increasing the amount of returnees from the small amount that it is currently to an order of magnitude higher.

Doesn’t this sound awful? Dragging poor sweet grandmothers out of retirement and sticking them into Amazon warehouses? But considering the amount of boomers that aren’t financially equipped for retirement (a quarter of them have less than $3000 saved up), isn’t the alternative - perpetuating a system where there is age discrimination in hiring practices, locking unprepared 65+ year olds into poverty - much, much worse? After all, that target wasn’t just randomly made up - it was decided upon after interviewing people in our target population and realizing how many of them want to return to work but can’t for systemic reasons beyond their control.

We’re also finding new and innovating ways to  dump money into tulip subsidies for vulnerable populations. In doing this, we’re making sure that degree inflation continues, and more and more of the generations that come after us are brought into societal docility and conservatism through debt. [h/t deleuze through 011] But what’s the alternative? Letting these populations, historically and currently not privileged enough for university attendance to be a norm, suffer more instability because they can’t get diplomas? When diplomas are more important than ever because of degree inflation?

What is the net impact that I’ll have on the world by doing this? I’m not sure that it bends towards goodness. But if I’m doing evil, I’m doing it to help individuals and reduce their suffering. At the end of the day, I could be doing far worse work placements.

#diary #longform